snip...snap..snap
just cut it chop it fck it... just leave it dude!!! well here i am with this fcking question again!!!!!!! WHY ME?? i knew it i just knew it nothing can ever be smooth enuf for me...
people jus think for themselves, tweak, modify and change everything whatever was said and done according to their bloody convenience and ya wen i do it...its jus unfair...motherfuckker.... hypocrite
i so knew it was my fckg mistake all the way from the beginning. to try and understand beyond your capacity is the biggest mistake i cud ever do...how peaceful it wud have been for me if i hadnt accepted certain things the way they were but no i wanted to be proved a fool by going all out of the way to put things the way i wanted...
i keep saying that i accept everythng the way it is but today i ve realised hw wrong i am...bloody shit...
the fuckker thinks he can fuck my brains forever and i will watch it happening...ok ya there were very good moments and then there were very bad ones but they were jus fucking moments!! not that i can call them months and years of that..
wat is gained after it is again betrayal....i now realise and big time realise it that emotional fuck ups are always simple if u look at em in only one angle and they get layered and even fuckd up once u start thinking about it in diff angles...fck it why do i even have to bother rite is wat i tell myself now..its enuf done and said and understood for all these freakkin years...and its jus not a small time to put it all behind me in an instant u know...but this time for sure its final....final final final fucking final decision by which im gonna stand and i knw will be supported by one person very strongly and thats what matters at the end of the day...
goin back to him...hw the fuck can you force anybody to do something...fucking how!!! the funniest thing ever...i know u used be crazy for me and now i am too (ya after almost the whole life time) so now u cant and shudnt let this go....dude!! i really dont know wat to say to that now..or for that matter what to think...and why.... it jus shows the fucking level of his thinking...man what was i thinking!! i really fail to understand what was that thing that kept me making the same mistakes again and again and again...
jus tried readin this post all over again man i dont know what i ve written...guess its jus the venting out shit tat has happened...hah...and i feel much better now.
people jus think for themselves, tweak, modify and change everything whatever was said and done according to their bloody convenience and ya wen i do it...its jus unfair...motherfuckker.... hypocrite
i so knew it was my fckg mistake all the way from the beginning. to try and understand beyond your capacity is the biggest mistake i cud ever do...how peaceful it wud have been for me if i hadnt accepted certain things the way they were but no i wanted to be proved a fool by going all out of the way to put things the way i wanted...
i keep saying that i accept everythng the way it is but today i ve realised hw wrong i am...bloody shit...
the fuckker thinks he can fuck my brains forever and i will watch it happening...ok ya there were very good moments and then there were very bad ones but they were jus fucking moments!! not that i can call them months and years of that..
wat is gained after it is again betrayal....i now realise and big time realise it that emotional fuck ups are always simple if u look at em in only one angle and they get layered and even fuckd up once u start thinking about it in diff angles...fck it why do i even have to bother rite is wat i tell myself now..its enuf done and said and understood for all these freakkin years...and its jus not a small time to put it all behind me in an instant u know...but this time for sure its final....final final final fucking final decision by which im gonna stand and i knw will be supported by one person very strongly and thats what matters at the end of the day...
goin back to him...hw the fuck can you force anybody to do something...fucking how!!! the funniest thing ever...i know u used be crazy for me and now i am too (ya after almost the whole life time) so now u cant and shudnt let this go....dude!! i really dont know wat to say to that now..or for that matter what to think...and why.... it jus shows the fucking level of his thinking...man what was i thinking!! i really fail to understand what was that thing that kept me making the same mistakes again and again and again...
jus tried readin this post all over again man i dont know what i ve written...guess its jus the venting out shit tat has happened...hah...and i feel much better now.
