jus a moment!

jus a moment.
yeah its jus a moment... a tinie vinie moment!!

sometimes this question keeps poppin up my mind 'is there any present as such'. i think there is no present, becoz as im saying this and while im typing everything is bcoming a part of the Past. so what is this whole deal about the past and the present.
its jus that lil moment in between. a vie lil thing. the rest is all past.
Past is that everybody either hates or loves, and in any case it jus doesnt get away. so here i am all again fighting with my past. just cant get rid of it. why dont these scientists or inventors come up with some innovation which can help people to erase the unwanted chapters of their lives. over a period of time i have come up with this idea of avoiding the pain. whenever these thoughts keep haunting all i do is think about them as somebody else's story. well thats not easy at all. but ya its fun sometimes. i mean jus picture this.... there is a story u know, its ur story... and u visualise somebody else in it. i find it very wierd.
so its these lil moments that gets packed up in the past.
a moment is all what it takes. jus that fraction of a second is what IT ALL TAKES. one moment changes everything. as in it maybe a transformation of a girl into a woman, a virgin into a non-virgin..watever (didnt know what it is called) and the journey from life to death. a vie lil thing and then its all gone. its history.
sometimes its freaky but all this really makes me wonder and my mind jus cant stop....

nature's language

i have always heard and read about the language of the nature and wondered how interesting must that be. i thot i am this extremely ordinary person with a boring life. its soo weird when u dont feel or have some bizzare experiences in ur life.
i dont know since when but somehow i started taking efforts and notice things around me. i mean 'observing' the world around me.
i thot seeing butterflies on a bright day has a scientific reason (obviously it does). but butterflies on a rainy dull day?? now that was a bit surprising. that was a day to remember though. its the way the world choses to speak to you. i then realised that the language always existed its just a lil xtra thing u need to understand it. my understanding with the surroundings have somehow got even more developed by now. earlier it was just the good thoughts and positivity that reflected in my surroundings. but now its almost evrything that i have in my mind.
a lazy sunday afternoon all alone in my house i was standing by my bedroom window pondering over the open blue sky and green land. it was a sunny day (read hot). and i wasnt too happy one because of the heat and two all the mess in my life. when i was jus so into these thoughts all of a sudden i see a huge gang of black crows coming out of the greens. it was jus sooo bizzare. i mean till then i didnt hear or see a single crow and out of no where here there are.... sooo many of them. they must be around three-four hundred of them atleast. my sight was filled with it. just like there is some cinema screen in front of me and it was this scary entry of the evil creature followed by the crows. that was something real freaky.
i wonder wat message was that but it definitely reflected my inner version.....my thots.
i have now developed these strange things in my head that translates this language of nature to me and i feel very much a part of it. i belong to this world. i feel good about it.
believe me the world does talk. it has its own language.

the p-e-e-p-l-e

people are very important;
its
the world of people
the people of the world
different people
different worlds
there are people everywhere
u cant escape them
they make lives lively
so u have to live with them
they are friends
they are strangers
they are just acquaintances at times
but they are there
always...
u have a story with all of em'
they are a part of ur story
everything that links with u has a reason
there is a raison d'être back and forth...
a missing link which u never wanna search for

a bond [James Bond ;-)]
one life and so many bonds (literally)!!

sometimes i wonder its amazing to know so many people around me, i mean imagine jus by the end of the life the number of people that one can know will be like the total population of Nambia or Mumbai....nw tat depends on one. but still.
my point is how many of them i will remember. well as of now i jus remember some key people of my life...but i think when u actually come to think about them u ll almost remember everybody.
neways this is jus about knowing people ...like jus their names, faces, some particular feature like 'that uncle with an hunch back' or 'that girl with a funny laugh'...so what about knowing someone in and out.
umm well think about it, how many of the people do u know in and out....i know all of them very well...i think so....ya i do.....well i guess i know all of the close ones.
but can i predict them, can i read their minds????? i am sure i can....ofcourse i can predict them.

ummmm.....can i.........

after a long time

i dont believe it, im writing aftr almost 4 months nw...it is nt tat i wrote regularly earlier bt still
this time im plannin to write evryday (jus plannin...) almost.
no its nt bcoz bloggin has suddenly bcom kool n IN these days
bt the reason:
smbody told me tat wen u spk abt or write abt things goin in ur mind, then its easier to remember and get smethng out of it....i think tats called constructive thinkin

i always hated to write diary and all tat shit but nw i guess it is fun wen u gt into ur flashback n read al tat good or bad. and then u c wer u goin.
smetimes i feel wat the hell..im gonna live the DAY as it coms....bt then i rethink....where am i goin neways days r jus passin by n im still here....rite here....stuck
so tats wat made me think tat i shud write n have a chek on my journey.....i have to go ahead i have to reach smewer....bt wer??
i think i ll figure tat out smeday......
believe me pple who knw their final destinations n the reason for livin r sooooooo lucky.
n pple like me who dont have ne clue abt wat is reason for comin into this so called BEAUtiful world (i knw there are many) is not all that sad coz its very natural....nt evrybody is born for a reason mayb....who knows.....mayb im born as reason for smebody....